Thursday, August 03, 2006

Molestation and its repercussions

How many of us have been molested? And how many of us have spoken about it? I've had guy friends who were molested as children too. I was..for a period of 6 years approximately. It started when I was about 6 years of age, and ended only when I attained puberty. That too it might not have ended there, but for the fact that I had been exposed to sex education and now understood that what was happening was wrong.

I was so scared of all men, including my dad and grandad, that I refused to be alone in the room with any man. However, this is something my parents still don't know. Maybe they guess, but I haven't told them in any case.

Getting back to being normal and not flinching when a guy touched me has been a long and tedious process. I still get uneasy if I have to be with a guy alone in a room for whatever reason.

I'm glad it happened, by the way. Because now I know that I'll ensure it never happens to my kids. I also have confidence in myself because I stood up to my molester and told him to back off or I'd report it to my parents. Yet for all my platitudes, it'll haunt me forever....